Importance

What is important to me? It seems that the answer to that question changes everyday. Right now, finishing this blog and doing my other assorted end of the year school work is important. That will, in turn allow me to do other important things, and so on.

The thing to realize about attaching importance to something is not to go overboard. If you attach too much importance to something, when that goal is reached/item breaks/plot line reaches a conclusion you are going to attach more importance to something else. Then you'll just be stuck in a revolving continuum of unimportant important things that you're always getting done, and your life will just be an empty void.

That said, something that is first and foremost in my mind right now, twenty-four seven, is college. I am going there soon. I need money; provided by a job (another important thing right now), and scholarships which are again funded by me doing well in school (which I alluded to in the beginning). This is important so I might find a better job in the future (yet another important thing), which will allow me to pursue my various hobbies (which must be important to me, seeing how much I speak/ type of them), and both of these things might help me attain success, which will eventually ( hopefully) lead to peace of mind. That's a reasonable goal to shoot for, right?

These things are important to me for several reasons. The first is that, well, someday I want to attain peace of mind, maybe with a little bit of accomplishment, and a sense of belonging mixed in. These thing in and of themselves are important to me, because they are instinctual cravings that I can't particularly explain in full. The other things are important, because they will help me achieve these goals. Thusly, you can see that I am caught in the very unhappy continuum I mentioned before. A realization has just occurred. This is important to meas well, because knowledge (and perhaps a smidge of wisdom) will assist greatly on my journey to the (henceforth named) "More Important Things" (peace of mind etc.). I have come to the realization that, perhaps I was wrong. Maybe just because something is cyclical, doesn't mean it will make you unhappy and devoid of meaning. Perhaps a certain amount of cyclicity is necessary to attain the 'More Important Things". My god...I could sell this crap in a book and make a bundle...

At any rate, I hold no illusions that any of this is going to be easy. That won't stop me from trying for it though. After all, It is important. Maybe that is what importance is. The understanding that one must still try for something, even though it will not be easy, or even possible. Deep things to ponder... and if you would like to ponder them with me, my newly published book can help you unravel the mysteries of the universe for only three easy payments of 9.99, sent directly to me in cash or money orders...

-Sholan out
(Calm. Cool. And almost collected.)